I’ve been deep diving into somatic practices.

One of the things I’ve learned is that anytime we have any sort of trauma or hurt, that energy gets stuck in our body.

Many of us are operating with stuck energy, not understanding that some of our behaviors and actions are actually from past hurt and trauma.

There’s a beautiful shift that happens as we age, and my forties have been an incredible time of self discovery and expansion. I’ve come to a place where I actually love who I am, and love the life I live. There was a time where I didn't always feel this way. I was afraid of getting older and didn't want to age, however I have found that my forties truly are fabulous.

What is it that you desire? 

What are those dreams in your heart that you've yet to birth? 

What does your life look like if it was everything you imagined? 

I’ve been releasing anything that’s felt heavy over the last few months.

At the end of August I began to feel a heaviness settle over me.

I was tired, irritable, and feeling extremely distracted.

My norm is to suck it up and push through, but something inside of me was aching.

Do you every struggle with feeling unworthy? 

Feelings of unworthiness are rampant among women.

They struggle with feeling as though they don't measure up, aren't good enough, or just feel as though they don't deserve any better. 

I get it. I was once one of those women. For a very long time, I struggled with those feelings of unworthiness which of course led to negative behaviors on my part, which then led to negative consequences. 

I was incredibly hurt

On Saturday, I found out that someone I considered a friend, blocked me on social media.

I had no idea I was blocked until I specifically asked a mutual friend.

At first, I was really hurt.

I cared about this person and I loved our connection.

To descend into our darkness isn’t an easy journey, but I believe it’s a necessary one.

Most of the time we suppress our shadows because of what they bring up for us

Shame, fear, betrayal, longing, passion, hurt, hunger, broken trust, intuitiveness, transparency, embarrassment, hidden truths, etc.

Who we are at our core is hidden in our shadows. If we can’t look at them we’re choosing to suppress pieces of ourselves.

My inner mean girl has been an a rampage for the last week.

She’s questioned my parenting, used every negative belief I’ve ever had against me, has had me crying more than I’ve cried in a very long time, and had me really wanting to throw in the towel and just runaway.

Healing.

It’s not linear.

It’s an ever evolving journey to becoming your best self.

You may disagree with me, but I don’t think we “ever arrive.” I mean, what fun would that be anyway?

We had a beautiful circle last night which revolved around the theme of “renewal.”

The women that stepped in shared so deeply and openly. I’m always so honored that they trust me with this journey.

I’m not gonna lie. I had a rough week. My back pain was out of control and I was in excruciating pain for days. I wanted to cancel this circle. I didn’t want to show up. I wanted to pull the covers over my head and just sleep until the pain went away.

Have you ever struggled to make a decision or enter into a commitment because you didn’t trust your ability to make the right choice? How many times have you gotten a feeling in the pit of your stomach that something was not right? Did you pay attention to your intuition or did you ignore it? Deep in our core, we know what is best for us. So why don’t we trust that?

The Wild Woman Will Shape the New Earth podcast. Come listen as I’m interviewed by Angel Quintana, founder of Holistic Fashionista and Sacred Anarchy. Angel is my mentor and I am honored to be on her podcast. We talk about all things Wild Woman and why I’m so passionate about all women reclaiming their wild.

In this podcast, we continue to talk about the Witch Wound and what we can do to heal it.

Part one of Healing the Witch Wound Podcast

One of the things that I love most about gathering in circle is the Ah-ha moments that come up for each woman.

What are you allowing?

Think about it.

There are things in your life that you’re unhappy with, that you’ve allowed.

We’ve all done it.

We allow out of obligation, guilt, pressure, fear, and a myriad of other reasons.

The more I unpack the layers of myself, and release those things that no longer serve me, the more I step into my divine power.

I can look back at myself over the years and see myself, but don’t actually recognize myself at all.

Doing inner work, changes you

The sister wound runs deep my friends.

After my post on instagram yesterday, I had so many messages about sister wounds.

Women are afraid to show up in circle, because they’ve been hurt and betrayed by women in their past.